In a desperate attempt to not write my paper about school violence and security, I decided to write a meaningless blog!
I've been thinking lately about decisions I have made that have had a far reaching effect on my life. There are some changes that I have made in my life that, while I know they were the right ones, it still hurts to think about it. There are people and places that I miss so much it makes my heart hurt, but I know it wouldn't do anyone any good to go back. I hate it when I get this sentimental feeling, because I feel like it keeps me from really enjoying my life as it is. I wonder if this feeling comes becuase there is something missing in my life, something more that I could be doing to make sure I don't feel this way, or is it something that is going to come and go throughout my life, and I need to learn how to deal with it. Sometimes I wish I didn't have this sense of adventure, that I could have been happy in New Mexico, where I had family and friends, and didn't get lost every stinking day! But it doesn't do any good to live life with what if's and maybes. The only thing I can do is look forward with faith, and believe that someday I will look back on the path of my life and see that I was heading where I needed to be the whole time.