It's the Small Things

I have been sick for the last five days. I can't remember the last time I was sick for this long! I think being sick has a purpose, to make us more thankful for when we are not sick!

Yesterday I finally felt like a person again, and today was a little better, and it feels SO good to be able to breathe. I never wake up in the mornings thinking "Man, breathing out of my nose is SO awesome!" until I can't do it. Even though I was sick, and wishing I were home in bed, it still felt so good today to just be alive. Or maybe it was the cold medication, going to my head!

Roommate Blog!

My roommates started a blog, we even have a monthly newsletter. Check it out, if you want to!

http://thewholeshebanghouse.blogspot.com/

I Probably Shouldn't Be THIS Excited...

But I'm on the Cakewrecks blog!! See if you can find me!

The trip to Austin was amazing, it started with a stop at Ikea for free breakfast and a few purchases, then to a Chinese restaurant, then the CakeWrecks book signing with the best cake I've ever put in my mouth (if you're ever looking for amazing cake in Austin, go to Wicked cakes!), then to the State Capitol, (which was awesome!!) and then a stop at the outlets in San Marcos. It was fun packed non stop all day. I give the trip a 9 1/2. It would have been a 10 if we would have listened to Alisha and parked in the good spot.

But the highlight of the whole trip is pulling up Cakewrecks and seeing my smiling face! I'm practically a celebrity...

A Thought

This article was really eye opening to me. I feel this way sometimes, like I want to throw myself down on the floor and kick and scream. Thinking of it this way makes a lot of sense!

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

Today I got something I thought I really wanted. The thing I thought would make my life so much better was given to me. And it didn't help. In fact, I actually feel worse now.

I think this is true of a lot of things in my life. I am not one to sit around and wish for something. If I really want something to happen, I'll make it happen no matter what. There have been times in my life when I am pushing for something I want, and a little voice is telling me to stop, turn around, go a different direction. But I don't listen. I press on, blindly, stupidly until I get what I want, which is never what I thought it would be. It never makes me happy.

It's hard for me to sit back and trust that good things are going to happen, and that there is something bigger happening in my life then I can see right now. I don't want to look back and see that my whole life was spent waiting for things to happen to me, but I also don't want to see that I ran around my whole life looking for something that does not exist.

I know I'm not making much sense right now, but then again, neither is my life these days!

Update

I didn't die. Barely.

Zero is the Happiest Number!

The unthinkable happened. In a good way. I paid off my credit card. Seriously. Balance: $0.00. I honestly can't believe it. I never thought this day would come!

I have my first session with my personal trainer tomorrow. I might die.

Have I Mentioned I Love to Sleep?

I woke up this morning feeling deliciously well rested. I stretched a little, enjoyed the feeling of being warm and comfortable. I was listening to the soothing sound of a lawnmower a few houses down. I pondered the beauty of life, and thought about all the things I was grateful for, with a comfortable bed being at the top of the list. All of the sudden, it dawns on me that it is rather quiet in my house, and rather light outside. I sit up straight in bed. The warm and relaxed feeling is gone. I look at the clock. It is 11:00 AM. Work started at 9:00 AM.

In my defense, I had a really hard time falling asleep last night. I was getting ready for bed at a reasonable hour when my roommates from college four way called me to plan our pre-wedding trip, and I got so excited I couldn't fall asleep! At 12:30 I finally gave up on sleeping and went downstairs to read. I read The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe. The. Whole. Thing. At 3:00 I decided it was time to go back to bed. I have a vague memory of my alarm going off at 7:00, at which point I must have turned it off and promptly fell back asleep.

I was so well rested today that I got as much done as I would have if I would have gone in at 9. I'm going to propose new work hours. They are called "Wake up when you want and come to work". Somehow I have a feeling they wont go over well!

Happy October 1st!

I love the first day of the month. There is something so cleansing about tearing off the past months calendar, with all of it's grafitti (my desk calendar, in my mind, is basically a huge note pad that just happens to remind me of the date) and mess and turn to a clean new month, full of possibilities!

I can't believe how quickly time is flying! In a week and a half it will be 16 months that I have lived in San Antonio. Wow! It will also be one year that I have lived with Tia! Last week was one year since I started blogging. So many milestones!

I never thought I would say this, but I am really enjoying the weather cooling down. Summer really took it out of me this year! It might be that it didn't rain all summer and the whole town was brown, or that the humidity finally got to me, but I am actually excited to be able to wear my sweaters, tights, and jackets that have been packed away for the summer! Of course, in another month I will be whining about how cold it is. Moral of the story: I'm never happy when it comes to the weather.